Please tell me I’m not alone on this…
I’ve become a master at fading out. In fact, I become even better at it the more events I go to. I was recently in New York and the room was filled with some jaw-dropping awesome folks. I pretended I was one of them and on more than one occasion opened my mouth to contribute to the conversation.
It starts with that fake laugh that (with hope) eases my way into the spotlight. “So, I knew this guy and he did the same thing.” Uh oh, I’m losing them. “And he was like, can you tell me where…” And they’re gone.
No one is looking at me. I tried, but I couldn’t compete with the story of the man who saved his nephews life by diving into the water on a whale watching tour. I had nothing. Why did I even try? And someone else, more competent took the lead and they are all listening to her instead.
And so I fade out, hoping no one heard my start. But, there’s always that person at the table or in the group who gives you that wink of knowing. The one who acknowledges the humiliation. Thank you humiliation recognition person. Thanks a lot.