I have been called the following:
Mind you, I’m the one calling myself these names.
I always figured I was, despite the smaller voice inside that suggested, “Perhaps this is a good thing. Maybe these are the things that have contributed to your success?”
I would drown that voice out and make excuses for myself. “I’m anal.” “I have to have everything in order or I will freak out. I’m OCD like that.”
I keep a clean house. I like things in order. I’m not the type of girl who will leave mounds of laundry for days piled up in my closet. If it’s one day, I start to panic.
It’s a rule in our house to keep your room clean. It’s not easy for all of them. There are different personalities and they bounce back from different homes with different rules. But, I like that they respect it and do it. It’s about appreciating what you have. And then that voice chimes in, “Or you are just a clean freak!”
I also feel very uneasy about leaving the house or going to bed with a pile of dishes in the sink. There’s something about coming back to clean house and waking up to a clean kitchen.
I have to have a list for every single day. Actually, I have a plan for the week. I schedule my free time, my focus time and my catch up time.
I schedule reminders for everything that’s on the not so urgent list so that it never gets forgotten.
Basically, when things are not in order, I feel irritable and I don’t operate at my best.
Some people are totally fine with paper piles and old coffee cups on their desks. They’re okay with a drawer full of trinkets, and crumbs on the counter. They feel fine. There is no anxiety and really doesn’t affect their life much.
Me? It totally does. I have to clean out my closet and drawers like every quarter. It’s like freeing up space in my brain so that I don’t get stuck.
So, yes, I kind of always figured I was a control freak. All that sounds very meticulous, after all, doesn’t it?
But then sometimes you hear something that changes your perception. Sometimes it’s something you’ve heard many times in your life, but you just hear it differently this time.
My partner and I recently had a full day workshop putting us on track to 10x our business. It was incredible. We were given tools and concepts that put everything into perspective – an easy, manageable and inspiring perspective. Suddenly everything seemed doable. And a lot of these things were things that I already did that were considered: anal, OCD, etc. But, the best part was that I realized I was not a control freak – I was just in control.